EMO.

HA! i am blogging again.

anyway i met up with ade, sheena and weiying just now. sigh. i think my life is getting very boring so i had nothing much to say also. everything i am doing now just revolves around my work. or maybe i am just plain tired - jaded. and i have come to realise that you have to be careful what you wish for. really.

sigh - i am totally regretting this decision that i made but what can i do? seriously - i never expected paperwork to be such a killer because i am practically dying. sigh. maybe i am just not merticulous enough. maybe this line of job is just not my cup of tea. maybe the problem lies with me.

i have never felt so screwed up before. my previous work experiences were pretty ok. but i am seriously struggling to stay afloat on this job. i have never tried so desperately to do something and still end up failing. so i am finally understanding what shuwen meant when she said she had a horrible experience in admin work. i might just be unlucky lah. but what can i do? clench my teeth and continue lor.

even though i am already 22, i know i am quite naive sometimes because i still view the world in rosy colours. but my rosy picture is starting to fade and turn black and white. whatever the case, i will still stive to do my best and make the best out of everything. if i totally screw up, they can fire me because i really tried my best. it's just that this form of work, their management style is not what i can adapt to.

i need someone, something to colour my world again.