Resignation

when i first heard that i got the job offer, i was simply overjoyed and i immediately called my friend to inform her of the good news. now 7 weeks after that fateful day, i am fighting tears when smsing her my decision to resign.

i never really believed that there were things you couldn't do if you put your heart to it but now i know - some things will still end up failing miserably no matter how hard you try. i failed to meet my own expectations and my manager's; hearing about my carelessness, blunders and inefficiency were the only things i hear.

i can say that i am at the lowest of my life because i have never been so unhappy in my life. these emotions were so strong that there were days that i cried the moment i leave the office. i don't like to cry because i see it as a form of weakness. but over the last two weeks, my entire being was so upset that i couldn't hold it in once i stepped out of the office. so in the past weeks, i have much cried more than i ever had in the past 5 years. and i lost 2kg working there.

thankfully, i have colleagues who are always there to help and support me when i needed it. i am really grateful for them for being there for me when i was at my lowest. if it wasn't for them, i don't think i could have last more than a month. Specifically, i really need to thank Pauline who sits behind me because she was really my pillar of support. i am reallt grateful for her advices and support...

despite the unhappiness, i don't regret joining the company because i still learnt many valueable lessons and more importantly, i got to met a bunch of great people like Hazel and Mui Huan. the only regret i would have is that i can't stay longer to work with these wonderful people.

hopefully we will keep in contact and tomorrow will be a better day.