i am stuck in a bumper car

HAIZ - eCR2 was a total disaster!!

i got kicked out of the system thrice and when i finally got things right; the classes that i selected are suddenly full! urgh. damn sian. damn sian. damn damn damn sian. i am wanna sprout endless strings of vulgarities. and the help hotlines are even hotter than pancake lor. i need help and i am not getting any!

so sian. i am feeling so blue ok.

so i went out for a while to get myself some fresh air and watched 'Boys over Flowers - The Movie'. those cute guys did make my day - i prefer Rui to Domyoji but i am not a big fan of the show. I was in a cinema theater packed full of fan girls - 99% girls.

i went in to watch even though i hadn't finished the drama. i never got pass episode 4 in the 1st season but i still enjoyed the movie. i think all those fan girls should go watch together because it is more fun that way! imagine not needing to hide your emotions and enjoy the movie to your fullest because everyone is just as absorbed as you!

the girls will be like gushing and sighing whenever Matsumoto Jun makes his declaration of love to Makino; oogling over Rui and Domyoji; whimpering why they were not the leading lady among the F4 and not forgetting the screaming at every inch of fan service. of course there is no need to worry that people next to you is not laughing at something funny. almost everyone is a fan so they will laugh together with you at the habitual funny things that the characters do. hahahaha amazing. the first time i am doing such a thing but i do hope that i get to do something like that again in the future.

overall: not a bad movie, but very good either. some parts might seem random but because it is a movie for fan of the drama so 'outsiders' will not be able to understand much of the storyline. and i love the scenery. totally nice and i think the producers of the movie were damn rich can! everything spells L-U-X-U-R-Y!!

i wanna watch more movies! i wanna watch yamapi's movie!! =) but movies aside - i am still stuck with my degree issues. i am going crazy because i can't make up my mind regarding the switch of degrees. i am scared that i will regret it later on!

i know finance is not my cup of tea and i will not do well in finance. because even though all the information is really interesting - how banks work and how finance works etc; but all the finer details are killing me. most importantly, i don't want to work in a bank and this might be a timely switch, given the financial instability!! switching degree is probably the right thing to do but i am scared. i am afraid that i will regret later!! and it is holding me back! and all the money involved! omg - the stress is driving me crazy!!

i feel like i am stuck in a bumper car. i feel like i am sinking deeper and deeper into this shit hole. and i feel like a immature kid without a sense of direction. totally hating this 'lost' feeling!! URGH.. wth - i am already approaching 23! what am i doing!!