oh - i am damn broke man. shit. i am still waiting for my pay cheque!! money money!! where is my money!! oh and i realised that Ajisen Resturant is STILL hiring people. they are posting adverts in ST Classifieds like every other week! either they are expanding their resturants or their turnout is damn. i am actually interested to try out though - then everyday i can get free ramen!! but the pay is $6/hr.. how? i think tution would be better right?
anyway next week marks the start of a new school term - new plans. new approach.
hmm. my reflection on the past few days: it was just one hell of a F**ked up week.
the terrible examination results. screwed up eCR2 registration. so many decisions to make, so many things that needed to be done within such a short period of time. of course it is just my luck that all bad things come clashing together. so everyday, my emotions take me on a roller coaster ride. but at least i managed to settle school related stuff by today. more things to do by next week. tsk tsk tsk..
i was reading a booklet that i was given and the first advice given was "Health is wealth. Therefore guard your health like your wealth". which is very true. i know i am not the most health conscious person around, given the fact that i love going to sleep at the wee hours of the morning and i love drinking! both of which are things health magazines always preach us not to do. i get depressed and paranoid at times when i come across articles where seemingly healthy people are dropping dead out of the blue. but seriously, i am not adopting any healthy habits yet.
i went for an examination yesterday gynaecological clinic and even though it was just the first visit - i was so paranoid about what the doctor's diagnosis might be... what if he detected cancerous growth or something. and at some point i was on the brink of tears simply because i was freaking myself out. but the doctor seemed optimisitic and everything so i am feeling much relieved.
at the crowded clinic and i was the only 'girl' because all the other females there were either pregnant and accompanied by their husbands or ladies in their 30s and above. i have never felt so self-conscious before. but it is not like i did anything wrong cuz i was there for a check-up. but i think i am just self-conscious about how they judged me. did they think i was there with my mom because i was a single mom?
if it wasn't because i think there was a high probability something was wrong and that i was afraid i might die if i don't get it treated - i wouldn't have told my mom to let me see the doctor. because i am quite sure the gynaecological examination would be quite... intimate. and i am very very shy about it. but i think i am one step more matured after this because such check-ups is something women should do. and having a habit of keeping track of menstrual days is very important for a female too! because in times of problems - the doctor would definitely need info on it.
actually when i laid down to be examined, i can only empathise with those teen girls who secretly went for a check-up or went for an abortion. because it feels damn scary lying on that chair. it was 10 times worse than a dental appointment. but check up is still important since small problems that are left untreated can still lead to bigger problems.
i know some girl (i don't directly know her) who had her whole womb removed when she was in her early early 20s. and imagine the emotional traumur she had to undergo - not being able to conceive. and the fact that she has to eat hormone pills everyday. those pills have their side effects and they lead to possible future diseases. wouldn't she have have to worry, for the next 40 years of her life, whether she might have developed heart diease or something? so like what you read in the papers all the time - early detection is key!
anyway next week marks the start of a new school term - new plans. new approach.
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hmm. my reflection on the past few days: it was just one hell of a F**ked up week.
the terrible examination results. screwed up eCR2 registration. so many decisions to make, so many things that needed to be done within such a short period of time. of course it is just my luck that all bad things come clashing together. so everyday, my emotions take me on a roller coaster ride. but at least i managed to settle school related stuff by today. more things to do by next week. tsk tsk tsk..
i was reading a booklet that i was given and the first advice given was "Health is wealth. Therefore guard your health like your wealth". which is very true. i know i am not the most health conscious person around, given the fact that i love going to sleep at the wee hours of the morning and i love drinking! both of which are things health magazines always preach us not to do. i get depressed and paranoid at times when i come across articles where seemingly healthy people are dropping dead out of the blue. but seriously, i am not adopting any healthy habits yet.
i went for an examination yesterday gynaecological clinic and even though it was just the first visit - i was so paranoid about what the doctor's diagnosis might be... what if he detected cancerous growth or something. and at some point i was on the brink of tears simply because i was freaking myself out. but the doctor seemed optimisitic and everything so i am feeling much relieved.
at the crowded clinic and i was the only 'girl' because all the other females there were either pregnant and accompanied by their husbands or ladies in their 30s and above. i have never felt so self-conscious before. but it is not like i did anything wrong cuz i was there for a check-up. but i think i am just self-conscious about how they judged me. did they think i was there with my mom because i was a single mom?
if it wasn't because i think there was a high probability something was wrong and that i was afraid i might die if i don't get it treated - i wouldn't have told my mom to let me see the doctor. because i am quite sure the gynaecological examination would be quite... intimate. and i am very very shy about it. but i think i am one step more matured after this because such check-ups is something women should do. and having a habit of keeping track of menstrual days is very important for a female too! because in times of problems - the doctor would definitely need info on it.
actually when i laid down to be examined, i can only empathise with those teen girls who secretly went for a check-up or went for an abortion. because it feels damn scary lying on that chair. it was 10 times worse than a dental appointment. but check up is still important since small problems that are left untreated can still lead to bigger problems.
i know some girl (i don't directly know her) who had her whole womb removed when she was in her early early 20s. and imagine the emotional traumur she had to undergo - not being able to conceive. and the fact that she has to eat hormone pills everyday. those pills have their side effects and they lead to possible future diseases. wouldn't she have have to worry, for the next 40 years of her life, whether she might have developed heart diease or something? so like what you read in the papers all the time - early detection is key!
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